July 11, 2019

Today is Shane’s 6th birthday. 
He would be SIX. I can’t really wrap my head around this.

We are often asked how we celebrate such a sad milestone. 
Honestly, each year is different. We have a simple tradition of having a cake based on a theme he liked or what we think he would enjoy. This too is getting harder. I am always thankful to have this consistency for now.

Shane was born on 07.11.13. He was perfect for us. Chase was born in ’07, Ella in ’11 and Shane in ’13. Together that marks Shane’s birthday.

Grief changes year to year. This year it’s been more physical. My body has been reacting in a allergic response to grief, i.e. asthmatic symptoms or allergic reactions. Like I don’t have enough to juggle at those times 🤔
But, that’s the truth. 

Each passing year will be a struggle. The distance grows and we cling to 19 months of memories we had with Shane. BUT, those memories were everything…the good, the bad and the beautiful. We were so lucky to have him share his life with us.

Ella shared her thoughts on today. When it’s raining, Shane is swimming. When it’s thundering, Shane is bowling. When it’s lightning, Shane is the star in his own rock band. 

The kids look forward to his birthday. They honor him, speak of him and now are teaching Will about him. Today at dinner, we said “Cheers!” to Shane and to our family and the happiness he brought us and continues to bring us. 
I said to Will, Shane brought you to us. Will raised his arm and said “yes,” as he looked up.

I can’t ask for a better ending to this day.